Dreamed I was in a large industrial complex with J, ex-boyfriend who has stopped speaking to me. We were speaking again, we were talking so much that we didn't want to separate even when I decided I needed to take a shower, so he came into the bathroom with me and perched on the sink counter while I went into a shower cubicle, stripped down, and ( Read more... )

When your dad comes home and the first thing he says is "where's your brother" and then ignores you anyway, think of all your ex-boyfriends.

Tickets bought.

We land in LA on October 12. I'll spend a week on the west coast with the family (I want to see the trees in Yosemite and sulphuroxide) and then I'll take a red-eye to New York while they continue their vacation up to SF and back to LA. Probably Vegas. They'll probably visit Vegas.

So it's real. I have ten weeks left in Manila, which will be ( Read more... )

context, consistency

therapy's turning out more and more like a writing workshop with extra homework

i dig it

showing up for your psychiatrist appointment hungover is a great way to prove to her you're a healed human being

finally saw a doctor. got prescribed lexapro and baseline tests and more therapy. went to have coffee, bought a dress, smoked a pack. by the time i got home the prescription was gone.

stupid stupid stupid hassle i am sad and angry and exhausted and also totally resigned to the fact i am always going to be fumbling at this thing called life, and ( Read more... )

went out to boho last night on macky's invite and got pretty drunk. is lasing-tae the filipino translation of shitfaced? well, that is what i was.

nash got me on facebook messenger and said if i needed to send drunk emails i should send them to her. i think i sent five? i don't want to check.

other than that i think i did okay.

patron saint of ( Read more... )

Creepers be creeping. Do you think telling me your woman is away will get me into bed with you, do you think telling me your ex-girlfriend used to hate me will get me to date you? Since when was I the girl to be pitted against other girls? Since when was the game about getting a girl to prove herself superior, since when was the game a game?

Here I ( Read more... )

Sunday afternoon on the couch at my parents' house. A friend talked me out of my original plans for my birthday weekend (to spend it stoned and alone in my condo), and rode with me back up north in a taxi cab at 2 in the morning. Now here I am.

Finished Dave Eggers' How We Are Hungry today. A good-enough collection of stories that stand better ( Read more... )